Tell me you love me.

screwed up-

Wednesday, February 01, 2006 / 7:52 AM

screwed up-

its totally screwed up

i hate it
my life is so screwed up
sux.

i dunnoe wats goin on
i realli dunnoe ne thing
i dun wanna think ne more
cuz i dun wanna care ne more..

i tired
tired of everi thing
i dun wanna noe wats goin on at all
juz tired

i used to get excited when i hear crazy in love
got sad when i hear we belong together
but
wats the point now
i dun even care ne more
its not my prob.

i was such a fool
in expectin sumthin in return yst nite
i keep tellin my self
stop it
u stupid fool
forget abt everithing.
but..
i still cant do tat
i still check it constantly
i am such a fool
a fool in my mind and heart
i realli need to practise on my determination.
cheers

i guess i was still expectin sumthin today
haix
at least
i am gettin over it
slightly
not realli carin tat much ne more
thanks grand papa
for everi thing u haf done for me
for the great help
even if i hurt u so much

maybe i am the one to blame
it is my fault
i hate my self
for being so ignorant
for being so stupid
for being such a fool
for being idiotic
for being naive
if i said i hate u
i was lyin
cuz i hate my self more.